April 8, 2020

If you give up New York.  

I’ll give you Tennessee.

I got to come in early to work today.  We have a big lunch planned for Mid Michigan Health.  It’s nice to be busy.  Nice to be baking cookies, and making tortilla wrap trays, not having time to let my mind wander.  On my way in this morning I was pulling out of my driveway and stopped.  The massive full moon was shining down on me from up above.  It was really quite something.  It felt, normal.

Late yesterday evening we had a huge thunderstorm roll in.  It hailed at my house, lightning, huge raindrops, thunder, dark clouds.  I was sitting on the couch talking to Amanda, and after the hail was done I grabbed my shoes.  She looked up at me when I said “and now I’m going to go stand in the middle of the rain and look up.”  She probably thinks I’m crazy, she’s not wrong.  But I walked out on the back deck, stopped, put my arms out to my side, tilted my head back and closed my eyes.  I felt every drop that hit me.  The water rolling down my face, washing away the day.  I stood there for a minute just listening to the rain. Being motionless and letting the emotions of the day leave if only for a moment.  

I don’t know what’s going to happen today.  Don’t know much about tomorrow either.  I don’t know how this ends, for you and for me.  And thats okay, it’s okay not to know how it ends.  Sometimes you just have to take someone’s hand and walk out of hell together.  

Todays song again comes from Snow Patrol.  Obviously they are heavy in my rotation right now.  

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear